YOU FCKING DISAPPOINT ME!!

Hello ppl....donno if anyone even read this sad piece of shit i call my blog but well here goes....this time im not talking about anything interesting....just wanna vent out some shit....

Im fucking done with a certain someone....fucking DONE!!!!!!!

I cared soooooooo much for this person to the extend that i would give up my life in a sec to save this person....ppl who truely know me knows that i talk alot of shit....as if im the grand master of all that is cool......but heres a secret.....i dont think highly of myself at all......ive done stuff in the past...taken life for granted.....and now i truely believe that i may not be worthy of my life.....and i would gladly give it up to save anyone who i truely care for......and whooopppptidooo this person is one individual who i would give my life for.....over and over and over again....if i was a cat and have 9 lives....i would give all 9 lives up to save this person.......

But things happen in life...nothing is constant forever...situations change.....ppl change.....

Many events has happen between the 2 of us......many of it brought me happiness.....many of it brought me sorrow.......we manage to survive through many of the bad and enjoyed together many of the good.....but i guess the last big "event" just fucking killed us didnt it??? huhhhh didnt it???? It did.......

Well to be fair i guess such an event may cause ppl to drift apart.....but i thought we were stronger than that....ohhh i guess wrong didnt I??????

I have even put in much effort to somehow reestablish even a small glimpse of what we used to be......but all that effort was nothing but a big ass waste of time.........

Now u have moved on....thats a good thing i guess....and in some way i have too......may still be holding on to a small part of the past...but heyy i guess i can be considered moved on with life too.....

The thing that hurts the most....is that u dont even bother anymore......after everything we've been through.....its like i dont matter anymore to u....not even a little.......

U mean so much to me...even now as i vent out my anger u still mean so much to me and u will forever mean alot to me regardless of how meaningless i am to u.......

It just hurts sooooo much to have someone who u care soooo much for......just completely forgetting about u......not even a small effort to communicate.....after EVERYTHING we've been through.....

Just shows how much u care huh??? With everything as it is now....i freaking wonder if u ever cared to begin with.....maybe u NEVER CARED for me from the start.......and well as cold hearted as i can get....that freaking hurts.......

I remember one night when u said that u would never want to lose such a wonderful person in ur life...........Well im sorry but guess what.........U JUST LOST HIM

a wise women once said......."lalalalala"

devilish greeting one and all....i wanna start this post with a very wise saying i heard recently......

a very wise man once said......."theres 2 things to chicks.....one...they wont sleep with you and then theres really no reason to ever call them....and two...they will sleep with you and then theres really no reason to ever call them"......wise words....wise words indeed...

anyway just to inform all my demonic readers....my comp is busted...so no net...therefore no updates...sucks especially since assignments and stuff are due....worst of all.....i lost ALL my pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everything from my fren's bday parties to my muse concert pics to my singapore adventure and fall out boy concert pics......im damn depressed....ohh well more reason to go back to singapore muahahahaha

anyway heres my singapore adventure!!!!

starts off in KLIA.....since im travelling under a staff ticket i gotta be all presentable...and i was super presentable...looked damn formal...too bad pic is gone...so no pics of me looking all formal....actually i was all formal except for my jeans :P coz my formal pants got stained somehow hehe......sooooo being in jeans i wasnt allowed to get checked in...arrrggg....sooooo i had to go shopping for a pair of formal pants...sighh wasnt too difficult but it set me back about 150 bucks *cry* so i got on a plane and off i flew to singapore.....

arrived in singapore around 12 midnight.....my fren was no where in sight......tried to call him but no answer......ended up chilling at Mackers....continued calling him and finally i got him....but he was busy and still in his uni working on a play....like those acting type plays....OMG....well to cut the story short i ended up waiting 11 mother loving hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for him.....he arrived at the airport at 11.21 in the morning.......screwed up rite!!!!!!!! oh well lucky he was wise and offered to buy me lunch at a very high class "family restaurant" .......HOOTERS......hahahahaha.....but waiting 11 hours in the airport isnt as bad as it might sound.....had alot of time to think....alot of emotional issues lately so i really could use the alone time to think and stuff......also met alot of interesting people.....

moving on.....we took a cab back to my fren's place....which look like an elephant went beserk in it after a tonado hit it followed by a large hippo geting all jiggy with it in there.......in other words messy as hell......fortunately for me i can get comfortable anywhere....so yeaa it was all good....so i freshened up and got into less formal clothes and off we went to clarke quay where hooters was located.....hooters was awesome.....good value for the food as well......and the staff there....hehehe use ur imagination......some stuff happened in hooters....muahahah interesting interesting stuff but im not gonna write about it....ask me personally about it if curiosity is getting the best of you.......hehehe....

ok after hooters i headed off to SMU (Singapore Management University......i think :P) i was there to watch my fren rehearse for another play......it was really interesting...first time im seeing such stuff......met more interesting people.....these guys are really talented i must say.....especially this one girl (sorry i forgot ur name) who acted as the slut in the play......hehehehehe......or maybe its just coz she was wearing errrmmmmm a very nice pair of shorts hahaha.......after the play rehearsal my fren brought me to the campus radio station.....it was damn pro looking.....he brought me into the recording studio and started to let me listen to his show and some other funny stuff like this guys who makes parodies out of pop songs....damn funny......out of nowhere he asked my to record something with him just for fun which we did hahaha......out of nowhere he said he wanted to record a show now....the shows arent live by the way....sooo as he was messing around with the equalizers to make himself sound more black hahahahha he told me that i was gonna guest host his show......omg i didnt wanna do it coz i have no freaking idea how thing were suppose to go....but after a few minutes of getting threatened igave in and did the show......was damn freaking fun.....i had a damn good time doing the show.....if i can get the recording i might host it and post it here....ohh yeaa met some people i didnt like at the studio....fake assholes that talked behind my back...hahahah those idiots didnt know i overheard them talking about me....dumb shits....

anyway......after the recording we went to raffles shopping centre to buy fall out boy concert tickets....damn last minute rite!!!! got the tickets and then went and got some stuff to eat...these mini fish and chips thingy.....damn freaking ONZZZZZZZZ.......ate in the cab on the way to the concert venue....taxi drivers in singapore are damn freaking awesome compared to damn screwed up malaysian ones......got to the venue and saw a whole bunch of kids.....at first it was like kinda a turn off having soooo many kids at the concert but turns out there was a super massive city harvest chruch thing going on........

anyway the concert was awesome........i got seperated from my fren so i hung out with the emo crowd...hell yeaa....we started to diss the opening band....a band called sore loser....they used to be called pug jelly or something...its a singaporean band......and damn they were super lame....so as usual me and the emo crowd started to give the one finger salute and all the colorful language started to fly out our mouths....hahahaha......they emo guys were awesome...and the emo gals scored high on the massive hotness scale hehe.....ohhh and some other interesting stuff happen here but not gonna write about it...ask me personally :P ........anyway fall out boy came out and they freaking rocked......i even moshed muahahaha was freaking awesome...i fell to the ground but the awesome singaporean crowd helped me out and got me up...damn nice rite.....doubt that will happen if it was a malaysian crowd.......after the concert i met back with my fren and met more interesting frens of his.......we had a tough time deciding where to head next.....and the gals decided to go clubbing....so off to clubbing we went.....my fren wanted to get me a good sourvenier......so he thought of the "red ice" from MOS.....so we went to MOS to club......MOS makes the KL zouk look like a typical mamak stall....ok thats abit far but heyy MOS really puts zouk to shame........before going to MOS though we went to a bar to get some drink...had a flaming lambo and i play shot master and bought everyone 2 shots of AK47's.......in MOS my fren bought me the red ice drink....hehe saved money there.....

clubbing till around 3-4 am then we all headed back......reached back to my fren's place and i immediately fell asleep on his sofa......woke up pretty late the next morning...he was late for another play rehearsal and i was late for my flight home.....was forced to take the next flight :(

so yeaa reached the airport.....chllied there for a few hours....met more interesting people.....bought some stuff for people i love.........boarded the plane and headed home.......thats it for my singapore adventure........kinda left some stuff out hehehehe......but basically thats most of it......

damn this is one super long post.......ok i gotta go do my assignment now......wasted alot of time on this edi.....

sighh hope i can get my net fix soon....feel so disconnected from the world somehow....anyway....synyster one signing off......laters people.....

MEGA POWER WEEK (A pre-update)

The last week was the bomb!!!!!!!! eventhough classes started and the synyster one went through an intesely sorrowful event.........

Such a weird week filled with happiness and sadness......

Not gonna blog about the sadness part......but happiness part was awe-freaking-some!!!!!!!

Went to watch muse in concert and just 6 days later flew off to singapore to catch fall out boy in concert.......had a massive awesome time in singapore.....quite alot of stuff happen in singapore eventhough it was just one short weekend......anyway this is just a pre-post.....dont have the time nor mood to get into detail about my amazing trip to singapore......need to learn to upload pics to my blog too......any tips on how to do so will be MUCH appreciated......thx a bunch.....laters......

Heres a very mini update..... A.J. got sent home in episode 5....... :(

its kinda funny.....yet very very sad.....

ohh well doesnt change how my day will be spent tomorrow hehehe.....still got other good contestants....gonna go to sleep now......toodles

Vagina post..........not!!!

Bonjour ppl.....I know my blog isnt really ready yet...but i got lazy so i'll just post anyway.....

Actually i was about to post something with alot of 'vagina' in it...but thanks to a certain tv show.....im scratching that idea.....maybe i'll blog about it another day...maybe never....ohh well.....

Anyway this tv show has really gotten my interest.....what tv show you might ask....well my dearies it none other than Americas Next Top Model Cycle 7!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok now i know some ppl may think its abit gay for me to be sooo into this show.....ppl who actually thinks this way.....pls do me a favour and go freaking kill urself u close minded F-ing morons.....

But to be honest im abit scared to find myself soooooo intrigued by cycle 7......another cycle i was really into was cycle 4....

Anyway after watching the first episode on tv i straight away went and download the rest of the season or cycle as its better known.....its 2.17 am rite now.....i just finished watching the 4th episode.....and the 5th is almost done....thats why im typing this post now.....otherwise i'd most likely be asleep by now....

So why exactly am i sooooo into cycle 7 one might wonder.....well i will tell you......its coz of one of the contestant named A.J. .......OMG i somehow find myself massively attracted to her......for all u gals reading this....try imagining how attracted u r to errrrmmmm Rain......yeaaa i probably feel relatively the same way about this A.J. gal.......

Well i wanna post some pics but i have forgotten how......its been YEARS since i've blogged.....so pardon my stupidity......

Since i have no pics im just gonna try describing A.J. to all u ppl.....well she really has a model built....tall....long neck....nice body.....let me assure all of u that shes not too skinny ;) .....long legs.......medium lenght hair but i guess alot of gals might consider her hair a tad on the short side.....but i think wat really attracts me to her is her goth rocker look......ok i know wat some of u r thinking.....but u r wrong.....its not extreme goth with the insane eyeliners and stuff.....its a very mild goth rock look.....its soooo kfhgfdhgdsfjhdfhkj (sorry cant find the words to express myself there).......

Sighh i guess i miss having a hot sexy goth rock gal getting all naughthy.......armlocking me from the back like shes holding me in a full nelson.......tugging on my hair......and rather violently....errrmmmm i think strongly would be a better word.....'strongly' neckking me.....errrmmm oooook maybe i should stop here.....or maybe save this lil story for another day......but alast thats my old life.....the life of darkevan......life is different now.....although many would argue with me on this......i like my life better now.....thanks to some special ppl who help change me for the better.....ok im getting side tracked here....sorry about that......the changing of life posts will be done another day.....if i ever do it at all that is.....

Anyway episode 5 is done and im gonna go watch it now.....i'll post pics once i learn how.....i soooo know how my day will be spent tomorrow....or rather in the morning later......heres how its gonna go.....i'll be in my "well dressed" sleeping attire....cuddling my "M-pillow".....and watching the rest of Americas Next Top Model cycle 7!!!!!!

As pathetic as that sounds im gonna be enjoying myself....at least until A.J. gets send home :( she didnt win........ohh well......good morning ppl.....synyster one over and out.....

Hellooo hellooo.......blog is still under construction....hhmmm post titles arent showing up.....if anyone could help me with that i would appreciate it......anyway just wanna tell everyone (if any) who checks out this sad case of a blog (for now anyway) to go download the song Golden Skans by Klaxons......awesome song...reminds me of the good old UK alternative music scene back in the 90's.....have relatives over at the moment...gonna go play with my cute nieces....synyster one over and out

Some blogthings

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love. You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet. And while many people may claim they would choose love too... You're one of the few who would really do it.

Would You Choose Love or Money?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

New and improved monkey dandruffs

Hola senors and senoritas.....as you can see monkey dandruff is being reconstructed....please ignore the previous post....it was OBVIOUSLY not done by me......but it was instead done by the ever famous michgorgeous.......stay tuned for some wicked shit....that is if i dont lose interest and abandon this blog again.......toodles~

Lipgloss boy :)


Hehlooo..
It sbeen ages since i updated this blog so heree are some updates. Allegedly.

1) i think Rain is hot
2) i use lipgloss now
3) i drool over hot guys
4) i have a partner
5) i love him alot!
6) i shaved my moustache
7) i like riding monkeys
8) i tell lame jokes
9) i study very hard for exams
10) i'm not gay okay.


XOXO